Healing

Wow! Today I have entered in this fabulous PAINTING e-course guided by Pixie Campbell, VISUAL QUEST!! It is a 5 week e-course which starts on Monday the 29^th of July.  It feels like I’m entering  kind of portal, in the sense of entering a new path to painting. But it’s not only that it goes much deeper than that. It’s about hope of entering a new life for me. 

Recently I have had a big setback on the job front. I lost my job because of my frequent bacterial infections. While I was in the process of losing it I often felt like falling off a cliff with no safety net to catch me. It was so freakin’ scary. Now that that scary part is over I realize I have been putting my art on the backseat for too long. I’ve been literally ignoring it at times.  Ignoring its nagging that it wanted to be acknowledged  by me. So while I went through the terrifying process of losing my job recently,  I also had to review who I am as a provider for my children, and also as a person.  I really had to take that long hard look at what I had done to myself, why I had not taken my creative drive seriously, and my instincts and deep desire  to make art, and to make IT at art? I now realize I had ignored it to the degree it made me literally sick. My body had in a way made the decision to change tracks in my life for me. Getting ill so severe and so often had caused me to lose my job. A job which has emptied me out completely after doing it largely against my will for 10 years.   

So I can’t even begin to describe how I feel about entering ‘Visual Quest’. I feel so warm inside since I know I will be taking this 5 week journey with Pixie Campbell and a lot of other inspiring artists. I will be on a mission to find my ‘real’ self again and renew my relationship to art and painting.

So So HAPPY!!!!!!

I can’t wait to begin.