So that's why

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Medicine for the soul

Picture by Jan Saudek

This post is a bit hard to post, because for me its one of the hardest things to be open about. But as synchronicity wants it, i AGAIN stumbled across someone's loving words full of vulnerability about the issues she has with her own body. I was really temped to just NOT post it. But it touched me too much. and then i need to post it, because it may help others as well. and not only that when i post it, it goes deeper, i take it out of its shadow, i bring the thing i fear most into the light. So it is something i need to go through, its not to be ignored by me for enabling its medicine to help me and to flow through me.

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"your body knows what you are going through.  It understands and it's been taking care of you." That was the turning point for me, you see. That's where I realized that I've been neglecting my dear body, not by abusing it--but by completely ignoring it and thinking so hateful to it at times.  That's why I had to allow my hands to draw the belly and breasts that I usually are a shame of and keep trying to pretend are not there. Most of all, I had to connect again with this great wisdom--the wisdom of my body. The flesh and muscles and bones and organs that have been witness to all that I have been going through--and have just taken and taken and taken and taken so that I could serve my family, my students, my business.....but I've been suppressing their soft wishes to finally serve myself. The woman that began to appear in my painting had wings instead of arms and a heart so bright that it's illumination glows through her skin.  She's naked and vulnerable and scarred from a child birth that didn't go as planned. She's large.  She's fleshy.  She's full. She's alive. She's strong.  She's healing.

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Here is what i copied directly out of her post. You can find the painting she made of herself and the whole written piece here

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Strength

 

Sometimes you don’t realize 

your own strength 

until you come face to face 

with your greatest weakness. 

~Susan Gale

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Beautiful talk about life

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Kitten update...

 whenever i sit behind my computer, our little cat, (kitten), climbs on top of me, and doesn't sit on my lap, like any 'regular' cat does. No she climbs as high as she can, and always finds a place to settle on my heart, literally.. 

 I could not resits to pick a few favorite pictures and post them. She is so lovely :-)

There is a lot of fighting since we have a cat, about who can play with her and when.. They are driving me so NUTS with this! This was a rare moment where they, or shall i say she, found the middle ground.. creating a rare moment of peace and unity 

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Living my truth

"That which can be destroyed by the truth should be."

- P.C. Hodgell

Stand on what you know. 

Don't be afraid to get the answer. 

Live your truth.

-Jada Pinkett Smith

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Elderberry synchronicity

We went out to find some elderberries this weekend. i kept telling myself they were already gone, that i was too late. But when i went out looking for them i discovered it is precisely now that its their harvest time. I happen to live in a neighborhood where we have a very huge amount of the trees they grow on.I am very happy we do because i am very fond of this tree.. i feel very pulled towards it somehow. It's very interesting to read about what this tree symbolizes by the way. Its a witches tree :-)

Anyway we found a lot of trees with a lot of ripe berries.. I decided this year i will be making a tincture out them. Elderberry tincture has been used for centuries to protect us from getting ill with the flu. When you feel your body is developing a cold you take some drops and it supposedly helps to not let the cold come up in all its glory. Lord knows we can use some help. We, my babies and i, were ill a lot last winter. I was terrible.  

This week elderberries kept coming up in my mind. And what do you know it just happens to be their harvest time.. I did some research on what to make with them before i harvested them and i already knew if i would find any i would make tincture out of them. And now that i'm writing this little story i see (yet again) how its filled with synchronicity..Love that so much..the flow of life going right through you..

If anyone would like to order a bottle of elderberry tincture with me, you can drop me an email at dissiones(a)hetnet.nl . But i will include the recipe in this post again so you can always make your own.

Here is the recipe

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